I feel your Pain Big Guy.
My Grandman was 94 when she passed.
She had Alzheimer's.
My Mother cared for her for 6 years!
One day Scott, Mom called me, crying hysterically.
She felt "guilty" for putting Grandma in a home.
The end is not pretty for Alzheimer's patients.
All us kids wondered HOW Mom cared for her as long as she did!
Mom felt "guilty: Scott because Grandma cared for my Grandpa who was a Diabetic, and went blind from Diabetes.
Grandma cared for her man for 17 years.
Grandpa was miserable.
He once fought in tuff guy bare knuckle fights, never drank OR smoked, and here he was, reduced to a blind helpless Man by Diabetes.
My Dad DIED from Diabetes also, got it on BOTH sides of my family tree.
His leg got infected Scott, docs wanted to amputate!
Dad said " I came into life with THIS Leg, and I am going out with BOTH Legs"
Dad Chose to DIE, I remeber my tears begging my Daddy to have the operation.
Be strong for her Scott, YOU are her strength now.
I will say another Prayer for you and her.